but god do i still feel you in the hollows: in the
empty space between heartbeats, the holding of
breaths, like you carved yourself a home
with your bare fingers, scooping handfuls of marrow
like earth. and if you turned around right now i am sure
we would find that the spaces you created for yourself
are still here, just like the all bruises. i want to say

it is not too late to change our minds, but even i
know better. i am thinking of the next girl, the one
who will hear about me in words like the wrong time and
asked for too much and nothing official, how she will try
not to make the same mistakes i did and maybe that will
be enough to keep you this time. and

i try so hard not to lie to you.
the truth is that i have been missing you since the day
we said hello and i still look for you in the shadows
when i cannot sleep. in the emptiness of my chest
cavity. in the space before i fall asleep and the space
before i am fully awake. the truth is i do not want to hear
from you ever again. i try so hard not to lie to you, but
then there’s always this.

” — j.c., negative space 
1 month ago65 notes
#poetry #spilled ink #everything i love is out to sea #02.28.14

(153/365; 07.20.13 {02.10.13})

2 months ago102 notes
#spilled ink #365 #everything i love is out to sea #i need to start posting thing as i write them instead of like #three weeks after the fact
hundredthousandtimesunder : your writing is seriously amazing

thank you (:

2 months ago
#ask box #hundredthousandtimesunder

(152/365; 07.19.13 {01.23.13})

2 months ago83 notes
#spilled ink #365 #everything i love is out to sea #i wrote this like two weeks ago whatever

(151/365; 07.18.13 {01.10.13})

3 months ago55 notes
#spilled ink #365 #everything i love is out to sea

(150/365; 07.17.13 {01.03.13})

3 months ago43 notes
#spilled ink #i cant wait for feb 18 so i can stop tagging them as #365 #i just wanna know how many i'll hit in a year haha #he glows through the room #i wrote this in like november
sycho-tick : Did you ever have a crush on your best friend’s boyfriends?

no lmao where did this come from

3 months ago
#ask box #sycho-tick
Anonymous : i know you probably get a billion messages a day but i just wanted to say your writing is flawless and after reading your whole blog i feel like i might understand a small amount of whats going on inside your head.

this is so great thank you bby (:

3 months ago
#ask box #anonymous
l-ugn : I love your writing. I read them at the end of everyday and they just calm me down and makes me remember that amazing people like you still exist in this world. So thank you

super late response bc I suck but thank you so much this is v sweet

3 months ago
#ask box #l-ugn
r-obertsmith : hi!!! okay so i want to get one of your poems (fifty-one.) as a tattoo! i know you already have this as part of your faq but i've always been trying to find something that would relate to the death of my dad and ive never found anything until i read your poem. im planning to get his birthday and death date in roman numerals and then your poem beneath it. im not sure when im going to do it,but i will submit pictures when its done!!

i’m so sorry for your loss but this is incredibly flattering and i’d love to see it when it’s done, thank you so much <3

4 months ago2 notes
#r-obertsmith #ask box

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